I’m Sorry.

To my best friend since primary school days, to the one and only person who always watches out for me, to the only one who treated me as a younger sister of yours. Rebecca, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Those moments we had when we were young, those moments we had when we’re in secondary school together. But I’m sorry to disappoint just now, today. I’m sorry but I had to tell you a lie, I’m sorry if I’ve made you worried, I’m sorry if I’ve made you cried. The messages you sent, it made me cried like never before. I felt guilty for lying to you, for playing with your trust towards me. The worried message which came from you, it touched my heart all the way to the bottom. The last message you’ve sent ‘I did this cause I love you. Sweet dreams, good night.’ made me tear even more. I’m touched by the concern you’re showing me, but at the same time I’m feeling very guilty towards you that I’m actually lying. Tomorrow I’m going to school, I’m not taking the exam. But I’m actually going to have a talk with my teacher and vice principal. I can’t keep to my promise, that I’m going to attend school every normal school day. I’m sorry I had to lie to you, because I don’t wish for you to be standing at my door to wait for me and to persuade me, because there’s no turning back. You were always there for me when I needed you most, you were the one who always made me smile when I’m down. I’m sorry, is all I could say. I don’t deserve the rights to ask for your forgiveness in lying to you, not to mention being your god-sister anymore. I’m ashamed of myself, to be lying to you who has treated me so well ever since we met. I’m sorry my dear sister.

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Meatball Spaghetti

Tuesday, went to hospital for my checkup. Waited super long, from 10 in the morning all the way to 4 in the late afternoon. Doctor said lucky that I went for consultation regarding my problem earlier, if not it might turn in to cancer in my body. But he say if it still occurs, I must go back to see him, in case it’s really cancer!

Anyway, just now accompanied onni to see doctor. Bought spaghetti and minced meat plus mushroom spaghetti sauce. I did all the cooking, making of the minced meat in to meatballs and it turned out super great! I’m happy with what I made, my onni says it taste super nice ^^ Might be making again tomorrow. And I’ll be going to school early morning with appa to speak to teacher and the damn vice principal -.-

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