Concert!

I hope they really do come for a concert, SS501! Saw the news on allkpop and it stated “December – Malaysia, SINGAPORE” I hope it’s true. However, I might not be able to watch because of money issue -.- Yes, money again! Everything needs money, oh gosh! But I really hope they come, at least one of my wish will be coming true. At least, I can see one of my favorite Korean artiste coming to Singapore! Pray hard that the concert ticket will not be so expensive.

P.E.R.S.O.N.A! I want to watch it, LIVE! I want to be there, chanting their fan group chant meant specially for them ): I WANT MONEY!
But I hope TVXQ, Super Junior, SHINee and SNSD come to Singapore as well )’:

And, damn F&N that subject! I got to waste more than $50 to buy ingredients and plates suitable for children! Just for a freaking ‘O’ level which already costs like a few hundred of dollars. And now there’s this F&N practical which will be eating up my saved money my dad’s hard-earned money! I really hope to get over with this damn subject soon. I still got to save up for a new bag which I’ve taken a fancy to, the bag used by Geum Jan Di in Boys Over Flowers! Also, I need to save for a new earpiece, although my dad is cute and kind enough to say after my ‘O’ level if I get good results, he’ll buy a new one for me. Because the one I wanted costs $25 and I told him I don’t have the money to buy currently.

In case people are wondering, how did it get spoiled? Answer is it was bitten off by the rabbit of mine -.- It’s wandering around the house and so unlucky that my earpiece was the target for that moment -.- Intended to hold grudges against it, but seeing that it’s too cute, my heart softened and I’m now stroking it like it has never bitten my earpiece till it spoiled~

I’m tired, I don’t feel like sleeping. How weird. I’m lazy to continue doing my decision making for F&N. I want to eat, but I need to cut down on eating, seriously. My tummy must be gone, because it looks ugly. Bye.

They make me…

Feel like falling in love again. Saw Shiya’s blog and it’s obvious she’s leading a very blessed life with her boyfriend. They are loving, even though they are of different races. It made me think of the past, between me and him. Why is he, in a special and bad way different from others? Other guys dare to show their love to their girlfriend. Other guys will take the initiative to ask their girlfriend out. Other guys will reply their girlfriend’s text. Most guys do that, but not him.

Ever since his grandpa passed away, whenever I text him, there’s going to be no reply. I started to get worried, wondering what happened to him and asked friends around. They said something which made me depressed, because he DID reply their texts. I’ve got no idea what’s wrong between us, we didn’t quarrel and yet we’re so far apart, even though I could see him in school. Some friends told me to give it up, since he’s giving me the cold shoulder for no reason while some told me to hang on to this relationship. I can’t make up my mind, I wish to be with him but at the same time, he’s making me miserable like never before. In the end, I still chose to give up this relationship which I’ve tried my very best to salvage. He didn’t say anything and still didn’t reply to my text even when I told him what I’m really feeling. Now we’re like strangers who don’t know each other.

I still love him now, yes I do. But the feeling is still miserable. I can only love him from afar and not doing anything for him. I can’t ever and never will tell him how I feel again, unless I’m about to pass away. Because even if I told him now, it can’t help in making our relationship better. We aren’t even considered friends anymore, I guess.

Chinese is boring ._.

Intensive Chinese Program is boring to the maximum! I shall not elaborate on what, because it seems dumb for me to be elaborating it. Slacked at another classroom from 11.30 to 12.30 because teacher thought the talk with Vice Principal starts from 11.30, but it’s actually 12.30~ Went to AVA room and it’s damn cold because the fan is directly blowing at me -.- Headed to Downtown East’s Restaurant ‘Just Acia’ or something like that with Agnes Lim, Chin Mei and Desiree. Saw Eileen and Kevin together! Still don’t want to admit that they are a couple -.- Just because of height difference!

I’m still afraid as there’s still awkwardness between us. Not like what we used to be anymore. We can’t turn back time.